After all of that I scarcely felt like going to school but I went anyway, but all the time had my day disrupted by heartache and worry for my beloved Tokyo and Japan. Sitting there I got updates about a fire in a nuclear plant in Japan and everything just felt worse and I turned bitter (but I'm not going to bring up my resentment against nuclear power here). I managed to go through almost all of my school day, just leaving one hour too early and because I did I saw four Japanese girls in the lobby of the school, three of them comforting the fourth one. Something terrible most have happened, it must have turned out worse than I first thought. I got home and the first thing I saw on my Reader was that the death toll was expected above 1000. I felt like crying.
That night we had some friends over and although we hadn't planned on drinking they had brought booze and I felt it was a good day to drink. All these ominous and sorrowful feelings had to go somewhere.
Today the first thing I did on my computer was to check the news. Everything seemed to have calmed down somewhat and I was a little relieved. On my Facebook a friend shared this link with pictures and I felt the horror as I looked through them (click for larger).
All these feelings ended in rage as I was given this link to read. My resentment against the US just keeps going up and they give me no reason not to hate them or their country.
I don't know if I'm being overly dramatic or overly sensitive or overly attached to Japan. But what I do know is that I'm extremely empathic to reading, watching TV, seeing pictures and people around me. I get all these feelings and I think it's a good characteristic to have but it's hard work feeling all these things.